Until Death

I love you
with all the intensity that one can feel
and all the weight that one can bear
and all the measure that one can hold

and when in death entombed and alone
its marker will testify until at last
the work of time does its final deed:

here lies she who loved you
and only you

Why Angry Videogame Nerd is Right

Why Angry Videogame Nerd is Right
and why people need to get off his back

Why is he right? Because we watched the movie trailer and it sucks. He posted a video, a "Non-Review," explaining his reasoning and it boiled down to this:

"I don't want to watch this. It looks like garbage. The studio is not getting any of my money."

"But women made and starred in it. You’ve got to give it a chance! What are you, a sexist?"

Using feminism or feminist issues to push sales is wrong. It's a form of social extortion.

Don't watch this feminist approved product? We'll break your legs (or sick the mob on you)!

This puts him in the awkward position of having to stay within the confines of societal good graces by abandoning his personal principles. People should not be pressured into having certain opinions without fearing a mob attack. It reeks of dogma and fanaticism.
A movie should stand or fall in its own merits.

Will there be tests to see if people are true believers and ferret out the impostors? Why not begin inquisitions now? Because we are already seeing a return of the Chinese Struggle Sessions, why not bring that on as well?

Well, this how I suggest AVN respond to the pressure being lobbied his way:

More Weight.


Fifty Shades of Draco/Loki/Kylo Rey

Fifty Shades of Draco/Lok/Kylo Rey and Heathclif

A few days ago, I read an article on the Atlantic that went at length on the on the phenomena of Kylo/Rey shipping within the Star Wars fandom titled, Fifty Sades of Rey. It went at length about the various possibilities involving the popularity of the pairing, which is much more popular than the other, and somewhat more obvious, hetero pairing, Rey/Finn.

The various possibilities were presented as follows:
- the fact that women like vulnerable bad guys
- isms
- the actor playing him is cute
- and nobody knows

I was rather amused by the whole thing because it meandered around, touched on the truth, and then ignored it to go on to irrelevant millennial navel gazing so common in this day and age. Of course, the word "problematic" was used, because it wouldn't be a pampered millennial screed without it.

(I was also a little outraged. Seriously, this is a pretty racist statement:

“I mean, if you’re white and you grow up in Canada or America, you are kind of inherently racist. You can choose to unlearn it, but it’s built right in.”

And untrue. Pretty much everyone in the world is racist, period. )

The only part of the whole article that sheds light on the subject was a quotation:

"We have our Snape."

Indeed, you do. The fact of the matter is that women love good looking bad boys with a hint of vulnerability. It's like crack to them, and me, I might add. It's not unique to Star Wars. While considering  past fandoms that I've been a part of or that I've known in the periphery, there has been plenty of examples. I will list only a few with their male counterparts that would seem like a natural woman's choice, but was not.

- Raislin vs. Cameron Majere
In the books, the authors liked to imply that despite Raislin's handsome features, he was shunned by girls as an adolescent because he was "weird." Then, as an adult, his crusty attitude, golden skin tone, and hourglass eyes chased away any chance of love. The only love he ever knew was with a beautiful Priestess with a severe Florence Nightingale complex. Cameron, in contrast, was always popular with the ladies. He was handsome, muscular, and jovial. He had muscles, looks and charm. Did I mention that he had lots of muscles?

And yet in real life, it is Raislin who women love. Look up "Raistlin Majere" in tumbler or Deviant Art and compare it to a search for "Cameron Majere." Raistlin is a sex symbol: beautified, and romanticized. Cameron? Not so much. He is sometimes drawn as a big hero, but generally he is drawn along side another character, mostly Raistlin.

I can't believe that the same wouldn't have happened in their world. After all, if I saw a man move an entire mountain to save me and my bedraggled group of refugees, I would at least be intrigued. Women are attracted to power, and who is more powerful than the most powerful Wizard to have ever lived? Just look at the hot chicks some powerful men who aren't all that good looking are able to draw.

There is also the fact that in real life, women are drawn to exotic looking men, otherwise men wouldn't get tattoos and piercings.

Also, women understand a man's pecking order. Cameron may have been the best looking one, but the truth is that he was his brother's -and I hesitate to use the word but I will because it encapsulates the relationship perfectly- bitch.

This would not have gone over well. Perhaps at first, Cameron's looks would have attracted them. His easy, disarming demeanor would have charmed them. But as soon as Raistlin barked an order and Cameron rolled over like a trained dog, most women's desire would have shriveled up and dried. They may have pitied him and remained friendly. But have a passionate encounter? No. Seriously, women don't like bitches.

- Sasuke vs. Naruto
This one is unique because the author of the story knew of this phenomena and used it. Still, there were plenty of people in the fandom who wondered at his popularity and the popularity of the ship of SasuSaku. I hate both, but I understand their appeal.

- Draco and Snape vs. Every Hero
In the Harry Potter fandom, there seemed to be two camps, the Draco fan or the Snape fan. I was a Snape fan. But Draco fans were innumerable. There is so much Draco fanfiction that featured him wearing sexy leather pants, that it became a trope. The author herself claimed to not understand the phenomena, which means that she doesn't understand the way most women think.

My sister liked Ron.

I consider that the exception that proves the rule.

- Loki vs. Thor
You'd think the women would want to get together with the big muscled hero, but instead they swooned over his less muscular, whinny, emotional, traitorous (albeit devastatingly handsome) younger brother.

It's such an old story that you'd think people would get the message instead of scratching their heads for the answer. Remember Wuthering Heights?A major conflict in the story revolves around main female protagonist, Catherine Earnshaw, settling for the nice guy, Edgar Linton, when she really wanted the sensitive bad boy Heathcliff.

Jane Austen buttered her bread with this trope, as most of her stories involved the woman choosing between a charming man and the stable guy. Most of the time, the charmer was either a villain or had something to hide (even in Emma, he wasn't a bad guy but his behavior was very wrong). Indeed, most of her male protagonists were positively boring, with the exception of Mr. Darsey, who was rich and aloof. But that's about as close as you get, which is why fans swoon over him. One rarely hears anyone go on about sexy Mr. Edward Ferrars or Colonel Brandon.

And no, not every woman is interested in finding the broken bird beneath the bad boy skin and fixing him, but enough of them are so that it's a major driver of fanfiction, speculation, and women's fantasies.

This predilection is not malleable. No amount of education or propaganda can realign it, any more than most men can be reprogrammed to lust after the women they don't prefer. If anything, it is more than imperative that authors try to get a more realistic message across so women don't fall into this line of thinking in real life.

So to recap:
It's not because Finn is black. It's because chicks dig sensitive bad boys  that have a small chance of redemption. See every example given above.



PS. The reason there is so much slash is because women find that hot too. It's not any kind of overly complicated "trans-example" or what-have-you. It really is that simple.

Note: this entry was written a month ago but I didn't get it published due to worldly distractions.

On the Doctor and Belated Things.

I got into Dr. Who about a year ago, during a time when I had completely written off this blog because I simply didn't have the time.

I started with the very first episode of the NuWHO and never looked back.

The Ninth Doctor, played by Christopher Eccleston, was a little dramatic for my tastes, but otherwise entertaining. He was the one who got me interested in the show and I will always think fondly of him. I thought that that he had great chemistry with Rose and I didn't mind the romantic subtext. (I didn't think it worked as well with the Tenth).

I like to call him the Dramatic Doctor, because everything he said and did was done with such emphasis!

He was a good Doctor, and left too early.  One season, or series, is not enough.

The Tenth Doctor, played by David Tennant, was immediately likable. I think he will always be my doctor, despite the fact that I found him a little sanctimonious. His pontifications about  about the greatness of humanity, except when some naughty historical tidbit comes around, were a little eye-rolling as well. It was Fluff, just Fluff. But I couldn't help but like him because he just kicked so much butt. My favorite Tenth Doctor episode was Family of Blood. Martha, an underrated and great companion, IMO, really shone and we got to see the Tenth Doctor living as a mundane human. His romance with the teacher was sweet and a little understated, but with passion beneath the surface. (I didn't call him the Love Doctor for nothing!)

But what really made me love the episode was that it showcased just how scary the Doctor could be when he got angry. Piss him off enough, then all those talks about no guns and humanity and all that go out the window. He may not use a gun, but he will seal you up in a black hole, forever. Yes, you are dangerous underneath that Fluff, Doctor, and I will lap it up.

Another excellent one was Midnight. This time, we got to see the Doctor at his most vulnerable. All of his Fluff about learning about new creatures and not being judgmental gets thrown back at him as it is those ideals which make him vulnerable to the Midnight Entity's machinations. It's quite intriguing. It also displayed just how vulnerable the Doctor can be without his companion. Had Donna been there with him, she would have been able to defend him against the mob.

The Tenth Doctor's tenure also featured my favorite companions, Martha and Donna. I liked that Martha was able to walk away even though she really loved him. Donna was funny and crazy. She would sometimes scold the Doctor a little too much for my tastes, but it came across as maternal or sisterly, so it wasn't so bad.

The Eleventh Doctor, played by Matt Smith, was OK. Of all the New Doctors, he is my least favorite. I know that this isn't a popular opinion. He seems to have amassed a great number of fangirls. But in my opinion, as a Doctor he was just weak. The first thing that I didn't like is that he resembled the Tenth too much. We already had a young and handsome brown haired devil, why do we get another?

He was a little too childish and playful. I know a lot of people find him charming. I get to see memes with him saying, "I talk baby," or "Fezzes are Cool," but there wasn't much of a spark with me. I didn't know where he was going, to be honest. On the one hand, he seemed like a jerk ass, but on the other hand he really liked children. He didn't have the level of threat that the Tenth Doctor possessed, which made him even challenge the gods (as in the Waters of Mars), but he sure tried to project it. He almost always failed. He had a strong personality, but he was led by the noose by Amy.

One of the interesting things about him was the fact that he had a strong connection with children. All of his companions had something to do with childhood. Amy he found as a little girl, Clara was a nanny and teacher, and Rory was Amy's childhood friend. River Song he first met as a baby. Many of his adventures dealt with saving children from calamities. He spent his last years making children's toys in a village that looked straight out of a Victorian ideal. Speaking of Victorian ideals, A Christmas Carol, ranks as the best Dr. Who Christmas Special. Once again it is very child centric as it deals with the redemption of a man through the Doctor's friendship with his childhood self.

I called him the Children's Doctor for that reason.

I didn't like his two main companions: Amy and Clara. Amy was too brash; always scolding the doctor. She was a little slutty, and rough around the edges, which was in itself not a bad thing. It's when it was combined with her nearly shrewish behavior toward the Doctor that I couldn't stand it. I would have liked her if it weren't for that, in fact, I liked her more during the viewing than I did after. Clara was annoying from the beginning and she ranks as my least favorite companion.

Rory is my favorite male companion. His steadfast love and devotion, coupled with one of the best character developments of the show sold me forever. Perhaps the reason I disliked Amy so much is because I felt she was unworthy of him.

The War Doctor was a good departure from the youth of the previous incarnations. He was more serious, but that was to be expected. He's the only incarnation that we know of that did not call himself "the Doctor" but rather, the soldier. But, unlike the other Doctors, he didn't have a long tenure and he didn't have a companion. The Bad Wolf incarnation of Rose may count, but she was not a true companion. I liked him nonetheless.

And finally we get to the Twelfth Doctor, or the Thirteenth, depending on how its counted. But I think of him as the Twelfth. I like him because he is a bit fresh. He is a crotchety old man, thank you, and does not like humans. I found his "Go Away Humans," sign rather relatable, as that is what I wish I could post on my own door at times. I haven't watched the latest season with him, so I haven't quite made up  my mind. But from what I've seen, he is better than the eleventh but not quite as good as the tenth. I still didn't like Clara. In fact, I'm glad she's gone. Yes, I know she is (spoilers) dead, and that makes me only slightly sad.

So far, my rankings are as follows:

  1. 10th

  2. 12th

  3. 9th

  4. 11th

That's it for today.

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Poem - Call me Cassandra

Call me Cassandra

Prophetess of Scorn

My beloveds cover their ears

With their hands

Don’t speak! Silent as you were!

Do not dare speak!

If the worlds burns

Then let us burn with it

My beloveds cover me with scorn

And shame me before their peers

Threaten to banish me

Seal my mouth with shame

Accuse me of their sins

Call me Cassandra

Prophetess of Scorn 
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A new chapter

I posted a new chapter to my original sci-fi story, The Space Between the Stars.

I hope you enjoy it!

The Space Between the Stars By: osricpearl
Despite growing in separate parts of the country, orphans Artie and Laz shared a connection that neither could explain - a mysterious power that set them apart. Along with their explosive friend Hash and the silent but blunt Modi, they go on an adventure to discover the source of their powers the secret behind their birth.
Rated: Fiction T - English - Sci-Fi/Adventure - Chapters: 7
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Review: The Fallen Kings Cycle


The Fallen Kings Cycle is a series of two books written by Gaile Z Martin. The first is titled, Sworn, which sets up the

conflict and the second is Dread, which continues the story on to its resolution.

Before I begin the general review, I must mention that Fallen Kings is a sequel to a four part series, Chronicles of the Necromancer, which I haven't read.However, Fallen Kings, read well enough to stand alone, as the background of each of the characters is thoroughly explained and the events of the previous series are given a brief overview.

The genre is Fantasy. Although I wouldn't call them high fantasy in the tradition of Tolkien, but it is epic in scope and reminiscent of the Belgarion and Codex Alera. However, the word built by Martin differs sharply. There are no elves, dwarves, halflings, or living fauna. Instead, outside of humans the only magical creatures to be found are vampires, called vayash moru, and wearwolves, called vyrkin, who can switch forms at will. There are also ghosts and living gods, who play a very important role in the story.

The plot is simple enough. After a long struggle for the Crown (which is summarized in the beginning and detailed in the Chronicles), the new Summoner-King Martris Drayke and his bride Kiara (who is also the heir apparent of her own nation) must now rebuild a broken kingdom beset by war and famine. The other nations of the Five Winter Kingdoms, their neighboring countries and allies, are also facing various disasters. In that time of weakness, a mysterious nation from across the Northern Sea decides to take advantage of the situation and attack them all at once. They must band together and form alliances to beat back the aggressors and survive.

The pros: I liked the world she made. It was cohesive and real. The Winter Kingdoms are alive, with their own cultures and histories. Some of the history we get to learn about through the narrative, and spans thousands of years. The writing itself is sophisticated and to the point. It describes the world vividly without becoming labored in the narrative.

The cons: Some of the points of the plot seemed too thickly laid. There were certain conversations which went over points already covered by other people in the book several times. The entirety of the first book is spent going on about how something is coming but no one knows exactly what except that it is probably an attack from the North.  This particular plot point is rehashed at least three times, and it wasn't the only plot point that was repeated various times. I know that she had three countries with similar phenomena and people were trying to figure it out, but she could have cut the dialogue. After all, the reader already knows all of that and would like to move on with the story.

The villains were not unmasked until the middle of the second book. We never get to know them personally, or even a description, until the very last battle, and so the climax seems shallow. The enemy generals, one who is named, are never described. As a reader who likes a good villain, I found this deeply disappointing. Especially since the perspective was written in third person. Who commanded the fleet? Was the king or queen of the kingdom bullied by the Summoner into fighting, or was the Summoner hired by an ambitious monarch? We will never know.

And then there is the improbable fact that in a world where ghosts are commonplace and where mediums are hired as prostitutes, that zombies would be a bridge too far. I'm sorry, we know we can talk to grandma but her corpse walking? Now that's completely out of the question.

But besides those minor quibbles, I found the books very entertaining. If the library ever has the Chronicles available, I will definitely been picking them up.

4 out of 5 x's


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